thursday thoughts - 2.7.19
The Instagram fam has spoken! Yesterday, I posted in my stories about starting to share “5 Thoughts” blogs. You may know the kind - with thoughts/musings/recommendations/bits and pieces from the person’s life. It’s a little bit like the mixed bag you can sometimes find in the Whole Foods cheese section - odds and ends that don’t constitute their own package. So taking my inspiration from the cheese section (as you do), I’m going to share little bits and bobs in this format with the exception that I’m only going to share four thoughts rather than five - purely because I do not like multiples of five (anyone else?). It’s been my intention for awhile to share relevant pieces of my life on this blog for awhile which is something I used to do a lot more of and miss. So I’m going to try it out for a bit on a semi-regular basis and would love your thoughts/feedback as always!
WHAT I’M READING
One of my goals for 2018 was to read 2 books per month and even though my year got off to a slow start, I ended up meeting my goal by the end of the year. I decided to set the same goal for 2019 and once again, ended up getting off to a slow start. I didn’t actually finish any books in January, but if you follow me on Instagram you know I just finished Just Eat It by Laura Thomas which I thoroughly enjoyed and highly, highly recommend if you’re working towards intuitive eating (or a professional teaching intuitive eating). Since finishing that, I’ve taken a turn back towards fiction and am about halfway through Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng which hasn’t quite captivated me like Little Fires Everywhere but is still very good so far.
I’ve been thinking about mindfulness a lot lately. Meditation has been on my to-do list for 2+ years (not an exaggeration). I have the apps, I have a pillow, I add it to my planner, I just c a n n o t get myself to slow down and do it on any sort of regular basis. If we’re being honest, I’m actually starting to dread (the anticipation of) it. And I know, I know that I just haven’t given it the time to feel the benefits of it yet. I know that it will help me be a less anxious person. And yet…I struggle so much to do it AND I’m not at a point where I want to give up on it yet. Honestly, I could draw so many parallels between this and eating disorder recovery…but I’ll save it for another day. If anyone has any tips, I’m all ears!
…MORE ON MINDFULNESS
That being said…I’ve been trying to be more mindful in general because I find that so often, I get stuck in my head with no real awareness. One thing that happened to me this week (that you already know about if you follow me on social media) is that I was stuck on a train in Boston during the parade for the Patriots on Tuesday. I was heading into work later that morning and the T (the subway for all you non-Bostonians) was teeming with people, most of them drunk or drinking (in case you’re unfamiliar with Boston sports fans, they are wild). It was an annoying situation for sure but I found myself irrationally irritated about it. As I noticed my stress level rising, I caught myself and thought “why is this bothering me so much?” I came up with a few thoughts - they were making me late (I can’t stand being late), they were too loud, and they were dredging up some unresolved feelings about college. I won’t bore you with the details but once I figured out what was actually bothering me about it, I was able to shrug it off a bit easier. And in a “if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em” moment, I turned off the podcast I was listening to and turned on a fun playlist instead (this one to be exact).
4. SNACK OF THE WEEK [HINT: IT’S CHOCOLATE]
One thing that’s been making me especially happy this week…Dove dark chocolates. If you know me in real life and you’ve ever been around my mama, you know our (her) deep love of Dove dark chocolate. There was a bag of Dove chocolates in the kitchen cabinet above her purse during the entirety of my childhood. I don’t often buy them for myself (I just kinda forget them) but I recently saw they were on sale and grabbed a bag. They taste like delicious dark chocolate and for me, a tinge of nostalgia which makes them all the more enjoyable. Also a quick note on chocolate while we’re on the subject: I don’t eat dark chocolate because it’s “better for me” - I eat it because I like it and gravitate towards bitter things a lot of the time (see: my great love of coffee and cruciferous vegetables). Please don’t eat dark chocolate for nonsense diet culture reasons - eat the chocolate you enjoy. I promise you’ll enjoy it more and really tune into the satisfaction factor that’s so important in intuitive eating.
Until next time my friends!
Cover photo by Laura Johnston